Since my last entry I have become a mom-in-law two more times, and a Gramma two more times. Truth be told..we are expecting another grandbaby in Florida in the summer! But I remain low key on the social media sites, in honor and respect for my kids. But, a baby is a coming :-)
Since I last posted, I faced the dreaded Empty Nest ( it isn't dreadful in and of itself--just something I personally had dreaded). I survived the Empty Nest....came out of the awful feelings, and arrived at the triumphant and peaceful feelings. Learning a lot about being alone, but not lonely. I used to feel the same way about both. Sad!!! God is really working on my heart, and showing me healing and peace and contentment in this place I had dreaded. Don't get me wrong--I still prefer my home full of noisy kids :-) But again with the bittersweet--what a great word! It applies to this beautifully--B I T T E R S W E E T. I do not take my family and friends for granted, and I am grateful to have all of them to miss in the first place.
I am having tremendous struggles with my health, and I am doing my best to pursue answers. I have had to say NO to many things I would like to do, because of my stomach problems. I got into this heavy pursuit of health when my first grandbaby came into the world. He gave me a tangible reason and goal, to eat healthy and move more. Not that my kids themselves, or my husband, or my own self aren't reason enough--they are. But, the birth of my grandson reminded me so much how I wanted to be able to run around and play with him. He made the journey so much easier by being my living goal. Now, with 3.5 grandbabies, I feel the same push to pursue health, but my body is not listening. The struggle is real, and I don't like it. But--and there is a big but--I am surrounded by my support system, encouraged by my kids, husband & bffs. I know the Lord is here with me, and at the same time I just cannot fight against the current situation. I need answers, and I am pursuing them. So, those of you who struggle with chronic health problems, relentless, frustrating and discouraging though they may be--just a reminder that you are not alone. You really aren't. I am not alone, and you are not alone. There will be those friends who fall away because they cannot handle your situation. Let them go. They were not your real friends anyway. It has happened to me multiple times. God knows, He knows all of it. "In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. " Romans 8:26 This is me. Today. Many days. It's hard, my friends. I don't like to admit how hard sometimes, because I sometimes want to pretend it isn't for real. But I also know, full of hope, that any present sufferings cannot possibly compare what is coming when I lay this body down. I also know many out there in the blogosphere are suffering too--physically and/or emotionally. We are all in this together.
So, my friends--I have been a bit MIA on social media, but it is because I just haven't felt that good. I remain the nerdy, happy-go-lucky Geekmom I have always been :-) Just took some much needed time away.
Now, back I go to my churchlady duties for a few hours, in my sweet little office! Just wanted to catch up a bit here, musing-style. I continue on this wonderful adventure called "my life'. Thankful every single day!
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