I haven't blogged since my vacation ended..but I should have. I prefer to post the happy and upbeat things, and leave the rest behind, but the truth is---life can be challenging, and it is ok to say so. Because God is exceedingly able to carry me through the hard times, I can surely be victorious IN them, not just when they are behind me. So, I have decided to blog about the journey I am currently in, which is my adjustment period to Christopher and Mary moving to California, Kate and Nick being away at school, and Michael having a gigantic change of plans. Our plan B is God's plan A, a lot of the time. I love the peace of trusting in God's sovereignty...it makes all the hard things make sense...He knows, even if I never find out, the reasons why. This is more in reference to Michael's car accident, which stopped him in his tracks. He is currently sorting through his options, but isn't entirely sure of his future plans. His teeth are healing slowly but surely--all root canals done, one cap needed. He is enjoying a part time schedule at Ocean County college, and is working at Foodtown in between. The rest of what has been going on in our house is jsut adjusting. Craig never seems to have a hard time with this, but I certainly do. I did give myself my "two weeks" to adjust after saying goodbye in San Francisco. I am feeling a little better...but I am definitely still adjusting. I miss them constantly. I am thrilled for them, and I know this was the right decision, but I just miss their presence. I thank the Lord daily for cell phones, text messaging, facebook chat..all the ways I can communicate with them...praying super hard for Mary, who is really missing family.
I miss Nick. He moved out officially in July. He will not live with us again, as a single man. SO strange!! Wonderful, and amazing..and bittersweet! I do love my kids' young adulthood, so why do I miss their kidhood so much? And Kate..I cannot even go there...She has been back from Africa, but had to go straight to college, so I still haven't caught up with her..she is doing SO well.
BUT I MISS HER!
With all this said, I am so happy for all of my kids...they are on amazing paths... I just need to adjust to this phase of life--which isn't a BAD phase, just very different. I am in constant conversation with the Lord about all these things, and He certainly does remind me that He has a plan for me, not jsut as a mom and mom-in-law, but as a woman--and I am eager to find out what it is. I have decided to strongly pursue answers regarding my vertigo, which continues to be a thorn in my side. I pray for healing daily, and until that time, I pray to remain faithfully trusting His perfect plan for my life WITH the vertigo. It is exhausting to fight against it..it is what it is, until it isn't any longer...
God is good, every single day....
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